Life is full of transitions- from elementary to middle school. You felt like you would never get to high school. From high school to the summer before college. Still a little baby, with your skinny high school chicken legs and no idea what college will be like. To your first time living away from RA's and parents. To deciding what to do after college.
Lately I feel like that is all my life is- transitions. A "hurry up and wait" kind of life that I love but resist at the same time. I'm a walking contradiction- most days I want the day to last forever. Some days I just want to graduate. An on a couple days a month I just want to stuff my head into the sand and never come out again.
But this is life, isn't it? Life is change and I guess I'll just have to deal with it. I'll have to embrace change I'm expecting and change I'm not expecting. Change I want and change I would rather go without.
Right now I'm in a weird transition. From England to Minnesota, I'm not quite fully back in America yet. I'm straddling the ocean, one foot in England, one foot in the US. I think once school starts up again I'll feel grounded (like I always do. Why is it that September is joyful for me? New beginnings, new knowledge, new horrible teachers you can make fun of.) and finally feel like I belong on the UMD campus again.
I just had a thought- what will I do when my schooling finally ends? How will I deal with year-roundness? No break? How will I mourn Septembers?
Yes, I did just title my post that. My hotmail account (YES I STILL USE HOTMAIL) got hacked/blocked/etc. It sucks because that is my MAIN email. Ugh. If you know how to unblock a blocked account, let me know. Also, the "other email" to send info to? I deleted that account a coon's age ago.
So my fourth of July was amazing- I brought my camera and and everything. I JUST FORGOT TO TAKE A SINGLE PICTURE. Doh.
Oh, and I slowly melted into a puddle. It was humid as h@%* on the fourth.